Wah.........I'm so close yet I feel so far away!!!! From "D" day that is. Tomorrow is our official due date and I feel I'm no where near going into labor. All I have is the occasional BH cx and that's it. So frudtrating. I"m so ready to get this "show on the road" so to speak. I'm not tired of being pregnant per se (though I'm looking forward to getting my body back for sure) I'm just tired of waiting and waiting and nothing happening...and not knowing when it will happen. For the last week I've been describing what I'm feeling as being a watched pot thats not boiling. The more I expect and want it to happen the less likely I feel like its going to happen. I mean I know everntually the time will come but....ugh this wait is a killer for someone w/ such little patience as I have.
I have my 40 week appt tomorrow morning. I really hope I'm not still 1 cm!!!! That's where I was at my 38 and 39 week check-ups...! Oh please let me have made SOME type of prgoress! With my luck I still have another week left :(
So, until the time does come I'm trying to continue to read as much as possible and focus on what I want which is a drug-free, intervention-free au natural birth. I am really hoping I can do it and hope I've "studied" enough to be able to put it into practice. I guess I'll find out soon enough!
So besides pregnancy.....what else have we been up to? Nothing really. We work and that's about it. Ecxiting, eh? Eric has been working 80 hr weeks for the past month and I feel so bad for him b/c things really havent been getting better at work- maybe a little this last week, but I'm not sure. I know that he wants to be able to take a week off when the baby is born but that's not going to happen. Basically he'll be off the days I am in the hosp but will then have to go back to work. :( But he said it wont be 16 hr days like it is now b/c he wont let it be. He will want to be home w/ me and the baby. But since he has to work the plan right now is for us to stay the first week home from the hosp w/ my parents. My mom watches one of my nieces and nephews during the day while my sister and bro-in-law work so that's why she can't come stay w/ me. It'll be better though b/c then we're also closer to his parents house so his parents can come by when they wish and not have to drive so far to our hose- though I have a feeling they wouldnt mind. Eric's mom is SO excited about the birth of the baby she can't stand it! I can't blame her- it'sll be her first grandbaby!
I will try to keep this blog updated once the baby is born- please be patient but remind me to update if I forget! :)
